There are some nice people and it really is not so bad, better than the life I left in Ohio, I would not go back, ever! I still have the nightmares about the things my father did to me and the lies he told, but they are not so bad anymore. I am in control and I decide my destiny. Even my dreams know that I am not a person that will be passive, not again, those days are over.
I was not the oldest daughter, but I was the favorite of my father. He told me he wanted to take me away and start a new family with me. Leave my mother, sisters and brothers all alone and leave with me as his wife. I wish I was making it up, but it is true. I do regret that I could not do more for my family, but I left the pain and the lies and the whole family behind. I do not feel mad at them for letting it happen and I hope they can forgive me for leaving, we all do what we have to and I had to leave. I did send a letter to the sheriff, but I doubt he will do anything. I am just the troubled run-away to the good old boys. What value could I have in their eyes? They think of me as nothing but a toy to use and through away. The customers in the club think the same thing, but they will never get the chance to use me.
